"Something Bad's Gonna Happen!"

Today has been an “up-and-down” kind of day.
It's like I'm trying to trick myself into being happy but, at the same time, I just want something to happen to make my day better.

"Oooh, don't put that much dependence on the universe, Whitney." I tell myself, "It's not going to just magically make you happy. Chance occurrences are just that. Chance."

Is it funny that in my head, I pictured  my "inner self" having a deeper voice? Like, that's what makes it wise. Hahaha!(And, is it funny that I say "pictured" when you can't picture voices? ;] Ooh, I'm crazy.)

And, I don't depend on something just happening, though I would appreciate it. And, if it did happen, it would be because I reeeally needed it.
Like, this one day where something bad happened and I had this...meltdown...
But, earlier that day, I had been sitting alone, kinda sad that I was alone, and this girl came and sat by me and asked, "Why are you alone?" I was shocked. No one's ever, ever done that to me before!
I didn't know how to answer. Why was I alone?
I shrugged, dumbfounded, and said, "I... don't know..."
She smiled and talked with me, asking me questions about my day and about what kind of music I listen to, stuff like that.
When my ride got there and I left, I was just thinking about how strange it was.
And even more strangely, I felt... like something bad was going to happen. (Haha, my family makes fun of me for saying that all the time during movies, so, I know you guys are chuckling right now!) And I was right, something bad did happen shortly after, but, I had a little bit of cushioning to fall on.

It's kind of like when you tell someone they look exceptionally nice today... then, you mention that you just ran over their cat.
Well, except that's kinda like you're trying to make yourself look less...I guess, horrible?
But, this felt like God was doing it for my benefit. He knew...
...I guess he always knows.

(Gosh, I hope no one's going to be paranoid about random good things happening to them, now: "Something bad's gonna happen!" Hahaha! Sorry!)